Love is an allowing force. We can love someone and allow abuse it hurts going in..it can twist our heart, soul and deep insides especially if we realise all the love we showed didn’t seem to figure much to that person if they shut an inner door on true feeling. Then we feel ourselves in the other side of that door. We feel invisible and yet we are with ourselves.
I’m getting to more forgiveness for this. At times it is inundating me in waves. I asked in early morning meditation for a reading today it was on emotionally unavailable parents. It said when we decide to show the love and interest in what happened to them we can turn the self centred hurt around. I cried deeply after reading it and felt my angels close.
I don’t want lack of love and attention to stop me opening to love. And if I give me what I need then there is more to give. Being highly sensitive and empathic due to past hurt or neglect may mean we suffer more but it may also mean we reach depths of insight others don’t. As we expand our capacity to encompass all of that multi-generational hurt maybe we have the ability to heal what we were forced to face and carry for the family collective. Not that we can ever heal what our loved ones suffer but if it helps us grow perhaps all of that suffering was not in vain.