Lately at times it seems we need less than we think materially. The most precious moments for me are in nature where I feel filled up on the natural beauty that the Creator just gives to us for free.
A moment ago I had someone else just ask me for help for their family on Facebook messenger. I should not accept new friends requests not from the Awakened Empath group any more. I am kind and given all of my savings I cannot keep giving in this way.. I also just want to make my life lately far more innocent and simple and with less of a need for things that are not truly necessary to my happiness even connections that are about others drawing on me to fill up..
Jasper my dog is my most precious gift. I do not even want a male partner any more..Men ask so much of me. I do not know why they think it is up to me to rescue them. Jackson claims the delivery company have also scammed him of 75,00 dollars after I blocked him last week.. I just think there are people out there who are ruthless and greedy and there are those kind souls entrapped in very difficult circumstances but I lack the power to rescue them all.
Today I seek peace.. I love poetry, nature, stars, sky, wind, touch, prayer, healthy food, peace and rest.. I am enough and I have enough I got myself in so much trouble thinking i lacked something and paying a ransom to others.
No more!!
I just want to rest in peace from here on in knowing that in any moment as long as I am truly grateful and deeply in touch with the healing power of my infinite soul, I am and always will be loved, cared for and have ENOUGH.
Emerging From The Dark Night 
deb, can we be friends on facebook? I am Shirley Healy oon there, my photo is of me with a border collie, and it says I work for friendly call, and have done early childhood studies. Hope we can connect on there! Xx
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Of course I have therapy starting in 10 mins but I will quickly try to add you before that .. 🙂
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I am going to go look for you now ❤️❤️
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okay good luck
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I could not see it .. I am on there as Deborah Allin and Jasper is on my profile too.. do you want to try to find me instead?
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Yes I will try to find you just give me a few minutes and I will try
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no rush at all
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Reblogged this on cm writes and commented:
We need to be able to distinguish between wants and needs. Sometimes in people too. Good for you in your battle with that.
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Thank you kindly for the reblog CM 🌈
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I agree!! I have caught myself in a bit of a shopping habit almost daily now…and I agree with you completely. This running running running, when I have everything I need in my home and right outside my front door with nature. That running blinds us to what is truly nourishing to our souls.
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Also, sorry I have been MIA for a few weeks. I think of you often. How have you been? How are you?
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Yes I really missed you. I’m just trying so hard to regain my peace. It’s a daily balancing act. How are you too? Have you been too busy to write? Looking forward to catching up.
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I’ve been doing well. Feel like I’m starting to step into my own life, but struggling managing that while also being a Mom to little one’s. My kids don’t nap anymore, and that was my BIG time to write. And they stay up later so I struggle to find me time. It’s not good for me to be running running running all the time though. Reading and writing center me, recharge me.
I’ve switched therapist in an attempt to do a bit more focus on trying to ease my intense emotions. She is able to do EMDR. The anti depressants are a great help with my anxiety and intense moods, but I’m exploring what else may be able to help. Medication was a short term thing to me.
Im hopeful.
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That all sounds so.positive. we di have to face what patterns are increasing the anxiety or where its trapped life energy trying to free itself for us to come more fully alive. I can appreciate there’s so much to give as a Mum it does make the journey all more challenging that said its part of your path. Big love to you ❤️
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Wow, it’s so simple..but seeing you say being a Mom is part of my path really hit me…you know I often don’t fully identify it as part of my path. I was so so “not myself” until a few years ago. I almost feel I woke up “to this life” and am trying to keep my head above water now.
But, I really like the perspective that this always was my path…I didn’t fully understand how much I was resisting owning where I’ve gotten you know.
Not that I regret becoming a Mom…but I haven’t fully owned how I got here. Hard to describe, but thank you for bringing that to my attention. I am here, because this is my path. It is true! Hope you are well this morning, sending you and sweet Jasper love.
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Its a huge burden mothering, I honestly wasn’t up to it so thus makes sense to me. So many of our younger choices are npy always conscious one’s. But Ian tryungvto accept that even things I don’t like happened were all part of the weave of life, it’s not easy God knows. And I do deeply understand that feeling of ‘waking up’ and even feeling disoriented if that makes sense at all?
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Yes, it does make sense to me! It did feel that way.
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❤ I admire you so much.. hugs and love
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