Sometimes lately it seems to me
It was only a thought form that kept me so
Alone, separate and unfree
Trapped in that frozen wilderness place
So terrified to open my heart fully
And embrace life
You came and you loved me
You tried to set me free
But it was the conditions inside of me
Keeping me lost
I see it now and sometimes its hard to understand
Was it the power of the ancestors
Holding my spirit down
Or my fear of saying goodbye to what was most familiar
All too calcifying
There is no lying
My heart aches for those lost years
I could have been free and living
And yet these are the conditions
Of my past existence
Life seems to me now
On the brink of this eclipse
Such a profound mystery
As I see how completely
That underworld place
Just captured me
And it seems to be
That our very beings are twin
There are dimensions to the depths and breadths of our soul
That span entirely different worlds
And as this seed inside of me calls me
To stop sleeping and to awaken
To abandon the darkened place
Still I teeter totter here
As wild birds flutter their wings
Circling deep inside my breast
Upon this tenuous precipice
Of my becoming
Emerging From The Dark Night 