at times you appear to me only as a shadow
there is a sense of ghostly things
beating inside of your heart
feelings you closed door upon
many years ago
but I felt them anyway
along with the vacant sense
that at times you were
not really ever there
even now
all of these years later
at times your absence still haunts me
(maybe less lately, than it used to)
today the grief of it poured out
as i sensed the deeper pain
my frenzy hides
really
there is no way to run from truth
from the grief hidden
beneath hurt
for ever
sooner or later it comes looking for you
it asks of you something
a reckoning
a paying of dues
or a welcoming in
so even now
as I allow myself the fading memory
of those days surrounding your loss
tinged with pain
to seep on through
still i sense your loving presence
in the silence
drawing closer to me
telling me you understand
and at times even from the other side
feel such sadness and pain
life had to be this way
Sometimes life is that way. This is so beautiful and I so understand it.
God bless Gary I know how deeply you do.