Figuring it all out?

I love this reading from Tian Dayton, its shows how much we (or at least I, as I can only authoratively speak for myself) may use reasoning as a defense. The important thing is to be nakedly alive to the moment but God knows that is not easy for us humans. This reading highlights a problem that may complicate our life : overthinking the moment.

Today I seen that I needn’t figure everything out. Much of life is simply meant to be lived and loosely understood. Reasoning and analyzing can be defenses against fear and anxiety. It may have helped me in the past to sort out what was going on but that was largely because what was going on was not healthy. I needed to understand that, in order not to feel crazy. When life gets healthier, figuring it all out can, in itself, become dysfunctional. It is like turning up the idle in the car when it stands still. When life goes well, I can just drive and let go of the obsession to sort out each and every detail.

I can live and trust my own vitality.

Nature drives with a loose rein and vitality of any sort can blunder through many predicaments in which reason would despair.

George Santayana