If it is true that love is a unifying force, then fear is a separating force and fear can don some cunning masquerades.. fear may lie underneath a lot of our anger or ego posturing and it may be hard for us to be honest about this if we fear being vulnerable.
I am thinking a lot today after hearing we are headed for some huge cosmic shifts this month about how fear can function to keep us separate and block off our hearts to one another.. One of the problems of narcissistic wounding is that we can have a rage that builds up around having been hurt, treated as insignificant or around feeling unseen. That wound when triggered activates the pain body and then we are off. What may help in this situation is to treat ourselves or another tenderly and the Course in Miracles says as much phrasing it this way
All attack is a call for love, so answer with love.
Those words resonate for me.. I see fights I had with my Mum now and there was a reason to get pissed off for sure but reacting out of that often caused problems. Anger is a separating energy and conflict is a natural and necessary part of any relationship, but there is a time too to join, to let down our guard, a time to open up, knowing we will not lose ourselves if we do. But if we were violated that may become painful and hard and its natural we need to protect a fragile Self that may still be finding its own strong base. Boundaries are important in our life so that we can practice self care and get the time to keep tuned in to ourselves inwardly, especially if we are osmotic to other’s emotions or deeply empathic.
Lately I feel my heart wanting to extend in love towards others.. I am feeling a real yearning for connection.. Having to organise for the internment of these ashes of Mum’s is stirring me up.. I see why my sister doesn’t want to do it, but not facing up to tough emotional stuff is no solution either.. and it feels harsh being alone with it, but I am only as alone as I chose to be as I always have an option to reach out to others for help. I did that today.. feeling raw and vulnerable around this time of year and with all the uncertainty surrounding Scott right now is not easy but its better to face life is not secure. I will keep the faith though and continue to keep fronting up. Much as I love my solitude I realise more and more lately what a people person I am and how much I love connecting with others, all the more when I release old fears of being hurt by things that as an adult I can find the way to cope with.. And always I need to keep remembering, other humans are vulnerable too. We all suffer, we all struggle, we all make mistakes, we all undergo losses and we all deserve respect.
Emerging From The Dark Night 
I relate so much to this. Sending you love 💗
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