All that is left

Fear of death

Possibly dogs me still

And there is often no way to make you see

I love you

God knows it was not easy

But did I end up making it harder

Than it needed to be?

Sometimes I second guess

And doubt myself

Even as I work so hard to sift

Each grain of truth

Sometimes my thinking lies

And I only know it

When I notice the tears

Falling from my eyes

Lately it seems

There was never a time

I did not stand on shaky ground

Never a time I could trust in love

But now sometimes it surprises me

As it rises up

Like a flood

Even as those old traumatic images

Remind me of the depths of pain your soul was in

In April 2013

Please I need to know

You want to stay alive

Because honestly

You deserve a better life

And I am praying that in time

You know your worth

But for now

All that is left

Is for me to

Show you I care


To love you

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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