All that is left

Fear of death

Possibly dogs me still

And there is often no way to make you see

I love you

God knows it was not easy

But did I end up making it harder

Than it needed to be?

Sometimes I second guess

And doubt myself

Even as I work so hard to sift

Each grain of truth

Sometimes my thinking lies

And I only know it

When I notice the tears

Falling from my eyes

Lately it seems

There was never a time

I did not stand on shaky ground

Never a time I could trust in love

But now sometimes it surprises me

As it rises up

Like a flood

Even as those old traumatic images

Remind me of the depths of pain your soul was in

In April 2013

Please I need to know

You want to stay alive

Because honestly

You deserve a better life

And I am praying that in time

You know your worth

But for now

All that is left

Is for me to

Show you I care

And

To love you