An expectation (can be) a premeditated resentment

A post I have just linked too written after my sister died.. not getting the responses we desire when grieving or depressed can be tough but from the other side not all humans know how to relate.

Emerging From The Dark Night


I don’t want to believe in a negative world where you can’t trust anyone.  And I don’t.  But lately It has occurred to me that my happiness decreases in relation to my expectations, especially unrealistic expectations.  Maybe its a lesson of my Leo North Node in the first house and is being especially highlighted now, that the Sun is inching towards it in its yearly cycle.  But I am more and more conscious of my need to be and act independent of expectations placed on others while still allowing myself to be authentic in my connection with my deepest gut feelings and needs.

As I look back on my life I see I have spent a considerable amount of time in frustration over not being acknowledged by certain family members and at not receiving the kind of adequate empathetic responses from friends which I was hungering for, having endured some…

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"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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