A whole lot of drugs : just not my path

A family friend just called to say she went to visit my sister and they have her heavily sedated.. its like a knife to the heart but this shows categorically I need to step away.. I cannot witness what the medical profession does and it just strikes me as wrong… I see the addiction issue under this as my sister’s biochemistry has been fucked around for so many years plus all those sessions of shock treatment they gave her it just make her comatose.. I know categorically only God can help her now there is a saying in the fellow ship ‘beyond human aid’. Many of us have to go into the dark and those who love us, no matter how much they love us cannot go with them.. we have to let them go.. I will be praying extra hard for my sister but I know I cannot do the visiting any more.. I have gone through enough with all of this.. I just have to break free to my own life… even if that means selling up and moving away and trying to make it on my own without my inheritance.. God will take care of me.. he didn’t keep me sober for 26 years for nothing.

Post script…after posting this I realised how terrified I feel for my sister. I just let myself experience the gtoundlessness of that…there is no ‘solution’ to this and so I choose to let go and hand it over to a higher source. ♥️💜♥️

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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5 thoughts on “A whole lot of drugs : just not my path”

    1. Thank you so much for opening up to me about it.. yes, its hard isn’t it… I feel such compassion for my sister but know what she is going through is her stuff, not mine any more. I can love her best by staying a little but not too deeply connected now… thanks for the hugs and hugs in return…. ❤

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