Don’t tell me

Please do not tell me again

How much you love me

When the wild tiger in me is on the rampage

Holding all the hurt of those thorns

Lodged so deeply in its paws

I will only unleash the full fury of a past

That was so devoid of this kind of love

That all I wish to do at times

Is destroy what is unbearable

You offer me love

From a war torn place

Where love cannot be expressed

Face to face

Skin on skin

Don’t you see what this does to me

Don’t you understand

How it tears me apart day after day

To be offered the possibility of what I never ever had

The absence of which cut so deeply beneath skin

Like a double edged knife

Today it all seems impossible

My trauma is electric

And its is burning like wildfire

As my body does its best to contain

The consciousness I have been forced to carry

For everyone else

And sometimes it just seems far too much

This burden fate has forced me

To be the bearer of

As I wander like Osiris

Over a barren landscape

Attempting to recollect the dismembered grief

Of my ancestors

Cant you understand at times

It is entirely too much

To offer me this

When you are also trapped

And yet again is it I

Who must pay the ransom

For your freedom

Don’t you see

No matter how much you love me

It is myself I must save

So please please please

Don’t tell me again

How much you love me

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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