There is a curse around me
Prison bars
Straight jacket
Enclosing wild bird of longing
Fluttering inside my chest
You held me down
Under a weight of water
As all my longing dissolved
Into the ether of fluid
Draining away
Just as it was after broken rib
Pierced the pleura
Flooding me with liquid
I cannot breathe
What the fuck
Don’t you see I am drowning here
Struggling to surface
Ancestral pain is on my chest
And all I do is cry
I am sick to death of this
Weight of pain holding me down
Full fathom five under the heaviness of water
Ancestral unconscious
Father crying for the son
He will never see again
You are lost to me now
I am gone
I am going under
Gone gone gone
Long long gone
It really does feel like that somedays. You express it so well.
Thanks it was so like this today. I have just been in a cleaning frenzy listening to loud music to get some of it out of my system. I am calmer now. Hugs and love to you. 🙂