As we heal we begin to learn who we can and cannot go to with our feelings and pain. I wish I had known about emotional unavailability years ago. It would have saved me a lot of heart ache but that said, not having parents who were there for me emotionally its natural that I would be more familiar with those who didn’t validate me than with those who did. And also I have learned in past years that part of growing to psychological maturity is learning to not always expect others to be there emotionally for us.
That said when we come to choose partners and friends we need to know what we need in terms of emotional availability. Some people just do not have that degree of emotional insight and we don’t suffer as much when we learn not to expect the unexpectable from loved ones who are not emotionally intimate with their own insides. A past therapist would often say to me “Deborah how old do you think this person is inside”, some of us still carry the unmediated inner child within us and its a major task learning to re parent that little one inside.
I came across the following in an article on line today after doing an image search. It made sense of things I went through with family members and past love partners.
Often when the other person resists looking within, being intimate with their own emotions, their darkness, their flaws and humanity, there is no way they will see yours. They will accept yours. Not in a million years.
If they cannot feel their feelings, they will not comprehend what it is like for you to feel your feelings. If the person has not visited despair, they won’t understand what you are going through. In fact they are likely to be terrified by you, by your experience, a foreign object. In turn, they will say the wrong things, shut down and while they can be physically present, the truth is they left you already. They left their body.
Emotions occur in our bodies and those who cannot stay in their bodies find a way to leave and they may often leave us if we are feeling emotions in the body they find too confronting to face. I feel its one of the real reasons my ex husband left me. When I started to feel my emotions it reminded me too much of one’s he had to repress and his family convinced me I was ‘no fun’. Probably true at that point as I had repressed a lot of grief.
Anyway on the healing pathway, just make sure to surround yourself with those who understand you and your emotions. Not people who make you feel crazy for having them.
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