Do I?

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Do I cry the tears you cannot cry

And is that why

Now so much water is pouring from my eyes

As my being feels set adrift again on that vast ocean

Churning and churning with so much repressed emotion

That is not just mine but yours and our entire family history

 

The text came just a while ago

To say that you are on you way

To Hyson Green

There are least you may get some rest

And not be as alone as you have been

 

My heart aches

For you are flesh of my flesh too

And the grief I feel has no end

Really

And are all these tears really the best of surrender

That I can do

As I let myself cave in

Feeling it all as dappled light falls

Silently here in my room?

All of this we carry is far too wordless to name

You bear the memories too

Even if unremembered

And unlike me you cannot just barrel through

Not that I do

But its what the critic says

Instead somehow

I just find a way to keep moving forward

Until the tide pulls upon me one more time

Taking me down but only for a while

And maybe there will never ever be

An escape from our unspoken history

At least that is what this latest development

Tells me

When I listen to the silence

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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