With my whole body
I am secretly and silently longing
For what my mind wont allow me to long for
Long nights spent wrapped up in your arms
Unimpeded hours of time
Exploring the spaces of this inner landscape
So often closed off
Due to fear and repression
Speaking all those words of longing
I never dared to speak
Face to face
So please don’t believe me when I act as if
I do not care
Don’t even listen
When I try to convince you I long for open air
Due to fear of being trapped in a place
I can’t move
Just turn a deaf ear
For you have already told me
You are not that guy
The runner the betrayer the one full of lies
And the words that you speak to me
Well they open my heart
And now my fear is dissolving
I don’t want us to part
But the harder part my love will be our meeting
For I know deep in my soul
Our affair won’t be fleeting
But deep and rich and ongoing and long
Filled with joy and music
Laughter, dancing and song
So please my darling don’t take too long
Because my body is yearning
And my soul is so very tired of being
Denied and defended
Pretending to be strong