Shut the fuck up

If I screamed in the middle of the café

So loud

That they had to call the security guard

Its because you would not listen

Nor shut the fuck up

Don’t you get tired of the sound of your own voice

You talk over people you claim to love

And tell me if you just feel something

You have the right to say

No one can argue with you

Because your voice is louder

And you are always right

Well that is why I screamed

Because you just won’t fucking listen

And anyone can see

I am not mad

I’ve just had a fucking gut full

Thank you very much

You walked away

And the men with white coats didn’t come

As I sat there with a half drunk cappuccino

Feeling like my entire body was lanced with knives

And it wasn’t til

I got home that the torrent fell

You’ve got no idea of the hell

I’ve lived through these past months

And now I don’t want to see anyone

I’m sick to fucking death of a world

That doesn’t listen

And just disparages

Those of us with a tender trusting heart

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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11 thoughts on “Shut the fuck up”

  1. I sometimes wonder what would happen if I suddenly screamed and vented the anger and hurt and worry and everything else that’s coiled up. Sadly a lot of the world doesn’t seem to listen, but some people do, some people care and are worth caring about, with equally tender and trusting hearts. You’ve put a lot of emotion into this one, I hope you are hanging in there okay…  ♥
    Caz xx


    1. Thanks Caz. To be honest while it was happening I was terrified and my body hurt but tonight I feel SO MUCH BETTER. It needed to be said even if she didn’t hear or listen. Thanks so much sweetie. Hope you are feeling good. ❤


  2. Unconditional forgiveness heals the mind of duality. Meaning, it’s all You! We are doing this life unto ourselves. Codependent love can be spontaneously healed through self love.
    You keep loving you and then It happens you Wake up from the dream of tomorrow’s. You are wonderful it’s the remembering this that heals us.
    Ceaselessly in His service.

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