I find myself looking back a lot in my life and with Venus in Scorpio lately the depths are being plumbed once again. So I just wanted to reblog this post from 3 years back.
I go through a huge tug of war in my mind at times, on this long and complicated, twisted, winding road of healing engaged deeply as I am, not only with memories of the past that haunt and echo along a chamber of years, but pulled in and dragged deeply down by underground emotions never completely integrated that lie subterranean like vast underground reservoirs.
One reservoir contains grief, another anger and yet another confusion, loneliness, self doubt, thwarted development and questioning. And yet there is another powerful place that I visit, one that contains joy, celebration, wonder, happiness and awe, one that is filled with longings and desires that have no thwarted hurt contained within them. This is the place I am longing to live but I know its existence depends upon the truth of the other world too being felt and understood.
The conflict I have been experiencing at present is with questioning the need and desire to look back and dive down deep into those older pools…
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