There is a deep melancholy inside you
That will not leave you
Although at time it abates
When sunshine comes after a storm
Often with the presence of the one who comes bringing light
But left alone
It does not take you long
To descend into darkest places
Where there just seems to be a spring of endless sorrow bubbling up
That never fully abates
Here it is that you find yourself
On days like this
As you examine the wreckage of a past
That pulled on you so unconsciously
And the sadness you feel
Is mostly about
The failure of that part of you to birth
So many years before
And some days it overwhelms you
As you feel the quiet rumblings all around
You long for change
Uncertain whether
The change demanded
Is internal or external
Do you remain here and rebuild from deep within
Opening your life
To the promise of new love
Or do you turn you back and start to pack it all up
In search of another shore
One that feels more like home
There are no answers that quite seem right
At this particular point in time
And so you open the blank page
And write your poems
As a stream of consciousness
Within which to navigate the flood
To stem the crying and the bleeding
For it seems now that all the rivers now run clear
As you see more deeply
Why and how you reacted as you did
And what it was from the collective
You were asked to incarnate
They say that youth is wasted on the young
But some make use of it
Others make of it all a mess
And then they fall into the abyss
Wondering what the hell was going on
And in the abyss there are so many things
That have to be learned and faced
And so if today
You feel this deepest sense of melancholy
Maybe all that is happening is
That you are finally acknowledging deep within
Truths that were too painful to face
And so you must not turn away from The Self in you
That is asking you acknowledge and transcend
A past that had so little to do with you
In which you became swept up
How could it have been any different from what it was?
After all you were only working over years
To reclaim solid land from sea
And from tides that carried you here and there
Until the undertow gave way
And your soul finally
Floated free
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