Sadly in our society so few of us learn to be kind and soft towards ourselves. We may equate this with an attitude that won’t help us to get far or achieve our goals but if we suffer from a remorseless inner critic that won’t let up (most common to suffers of PTSD and Complex PTSD or childhood trauma), its going to be harder to reach any goals anyway.
Sadly some of us were not encouraged in our childhood, we may have been shamed or blamed. We may have learned to pretend or to put on masks, we may never have been rewarded for authenticity. In my own childhood I was stomped on many times, or just left alone and ignored and in adulthood I have learned holding onto resentment about it isn’t going to help and if I don’t change that same internalised attitude of being too critical of myself or others I am not going to get far, in fact my perfectionism will make me too weak to even start.
So it was with a smile I read the following reading from Tian Dayton last night about patience. Patience may be a disregarded or maligned quality in modern society but if it’s well done patience can get us much further and bring our closer to our dreams. The following reading is about self love too and today I am sharing it as the Sun starts to move through critical Virgo and we are drawn toward noticing the earthly practical dimensions of our experience and how far we have come or not come, let’s be kind to ourselves.
Today I will be patient with myself. When I do not do as well as I wish I would I will not make that a reason to get down on myself. I will instead recognise that the fastest way to bring myself out of a painful funk is through understanding and being good to myself. I get caught in my own cycle of shame, resentment and blame. If a child is upset, I comfort it because I understand that that is what will make things better. Calling a child names will increase its hurt and shame. I will not call myself names either. Rather, I will show love and patience in every way I can.
I am patient with myself.
Patience accomplishes its object, while hurry speeds to its ruin.