You say I am all you need
And oh my heart is troubled
For I know that the depths of my soul
Cannot find completion
Only in another
And it makes me sad
To think I could hurt you
When I say to you
Don’t look to me to heal your wounds
What has become of me?
Is it just
That I have had to travel so very far
Alone
Over the harshest of roads?
And is a part of me closing a door
On the possibility of healing
Through a truly connected love?
Perhaps I will forever
Hold a part of myself back
Because I know what it is to lose
But I also know
That out of loss
And of that absence left
Comes a larger presence at times
For at times
All I need is this
Blank page
Or Computer screen with an open page
A place to pour out my soul
And enter my wild imagining
Found in reverie
And poetry
Discovered in aloneness
But that is only part of me
The part that fears I won’t be free
If you try to possess and capture me
And yet another part of me
Needs and loves you too
So if I say these words
Just stay with me
But please allow my soul
Always
A place to be free
Its so brave to put that raw vulnerability out and you’ve done it wonderfully, I’m in just love with this !
Are you? Wow that’s wonderful. From an external perspective I feel you know more what’s going on with me, than me. I always find relationships hard due to a fear of being swallowed up. Its probably not rational but then these things never are really. 🙂
The best way is to breathe, and take a step at a time. Its alright to be vulnerable in a relationship as long as you have the faith of being held up, because any relationship comes with its vulnerabilities and insecurities, its a package deal, its just about being selfless at times, both ways and just knowing its okay, without judging !
Yes I believe the selflessness is so important and its only after a knee jerk reaction I see a better way and how it may have come out of a vulnerability which it would have been better to expose. Anyway its all a learning curve and as you say faith in being held or held up and not abandoned again is so important. I certainly have that in this relationship. Thanks so much for your reply.
That faith is almost everything you need, rest is just an organic process, breathe and just keep moving ahead, rest will be taken care of 🙂
Happy to talk to you always ! ❤
Much love and wishes sending your way ! ❤
Thank you so very much. ❤
How much I relate to this!
Beautiful, bold, brilliant piece here Deb. You’ve captured the essence of what it is to be loved and how we might arrive there only to consider that it is NOT the end all that every romantic novel would have us believe. There is so much more to it, and you’ve captured it magnificently.
Brava!
Oh wow Marc, That’s so good to read from you. This one came straight out of my heart and lastest experiences. There is as much heart opening in losing a love as in finding one and those of us who have gone through it know that.
Thanks so so much for such high praise.
🙂
Thank you for this Deb!
Oh my! This is so beautiful! You nailed it here Deb! You really captured what it feels like! xoxo
That is so good to hear. Often we don’t realise how many others feel just exactly the same. Lots of love to you, Carol Ann. ❤
Thanks sweetie 💞
well done and well writen i enjoyed the read.
#Lifeat60
Thanks so much 🙂 wishing you a beautiful day.