Light flooding locked dungeons

In your room

This accepting space

Opens the door to my heart

There is nothing I cannot say

Or share with you

You know my inner life and history of losses so well

And so today

When I read my poem

And cried

Touching base with my soul

As you spoke of light flooding locked dungeons

I saw my father trapped inside

And as the image transformed

Scott’s face appeared

You are there with me

Your silent presence never absent

Containing my soul

I longed for this all of my life

A loving space a home

And together on this journey for nearly 3 years

You have been so consistent

Always there for me

Even when it was better for you to say

No

This time you need to hold yourself

Through being the consistently emotionally available parent

I never had

You have given me such a gift

A place to unravel the twisted up agonies of my life

A place to come to know the feelings

Of the darkness and light

I held inside

The gift you have gifted me is beyond price

And never once have you given me

Unsolicited advice

So today when I heard my inner child cry

It was to adult me she turned first

It was adult me who answered

And it was only you

Who helped me grow this awareness inside

And now I knoe I will never again

No matter who leaves

Be utterly forsaken