It was so hard to hear you yesterday
So defeated my darling
You are usually the one so full of hope
And in the situation you find yourself
Sometimes I wonder how on earth you cope
And manage every day
To keep soldiering on
All you ever think of
Is how to protect me
How to care for me
And when I get angry because things go wrong
And I have not one clue
What is going on
Over there in that hell you inhabit
Then I forget to remember you are doing your best
All I feel is my frustration
At the fact trauma seems to find me
Over and over again
So many times it seems I bled
From the wounds of others
I was the one who cared
The one with a bandage
Ready to say there there
Because I knew too for years
How it felt to be traumatised
Or abandoned
Or left for dead
Oh my god the things it does to your head
And so I gave love
As I knew I must
But sometimes the anger well it rages inside
Why oh why God did you give me this life?
But then just as the storm seems to have totally consumed
And almost sucked all the air from the room
A bright sun will suddenly burst free from the clouds
And like a dead Jesus pain disappears
Only leaving a shroud
And then I know defeat is not really the end
Just a stepping stone on the way
To a new healing
A new understanding
A new way of living
A new victory
It spoke of hope to me ! 🙂
How the defeats break you, yet love is a common thread holding you and the path of your future, where there is endless light at the end of this tunnel ! 🙂
Just a plain beautiful one, rightly at the apt moment ! 🙂
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That’s exactly what I was trying to convey. That some defeats just show you the value of life and love for next time. Thank you. ❤
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