Blue topaz

Blue topaz

This morning

In my imagination I was again

Cycling across the meadows

Towards the Botanic Garden

Scarf blowing in the breeze

Blue topaz earrings dangling


One disappeared by days end

I only noticed

As I caught a glance of my reflection

In the bathroom mirror

They were

The first present you gave me

After we married

A reflection of your soul and spirit

And today

 I remember the heaven

We knew there for a time

Which was so brief

Merely a blip in time

Eventually swallowed by all the pain

Of my unreconciled past

And I realise with sadness

Those days of peace and potential

Will not come again

And who knows where my Blue Topaz now lies

Under Cambridge skies

But thank you my love

For the years

We spent


For the gift

And yes,

Even for the heartbreak

As day dawns here

All these years hence I find my tears

No longer hurt as much

Are more a kind of cleansing

Those times my love

Of cycling towards the meadows together

Through cow parsley waist high

Will never come again

And some loses we can never reclaim

Only learn over long years

To find a way to live


And find the gift and healing

With in the pain

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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