On Past Failures and Future Horizons

The meaning of true courage. ❤

Objects, and the Distance Between Them

First attempt
Fourteen
Future uncertain
Past unkind
Why go on
When there is nothing here
To call my own

Second attempt
Seventeen
Failure to recover
From past sins
An unforgiving self
Critical to the end
Wishing only for
Peace of mind

Third attempt
Twenty-eight
Seated before
Photos of
Loved and lost
Dark basement
Rope taut
Journey music on repeat
May they find me as I feel
Cold and alone
Only the written word
To carry my name

Fourth attempt
Days later
No room to breathe
No space
No call my own
Ruin strewn with
Best intentions
Out cold
Hours on end
Wake to
Pounding confusion
Tears fall
Failure clear

And now
A new attempt
To live
For new horizons
With intent
With purpose
To love without restraint
To give without expectations
To wake and seek
A day without
Empty voices

To take
What was never owned
A crime
Or a…

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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4 thoughts on “On Past Failures and Future Horizons”

  1. Thank you once again for the reblog; I truly hope that someone may read this who is in a similar place to where I have been and knos that there is still hope for a future… There is still and always will be love.

    1. I would love to set up a collaborative page where we could help those feeling this way. It is really only those who have been through it who know the territory, such as you. I have never made a conscious attempt on my life although I have contemplated it more times than I could name and as you probably know both of my sisters made attempts, so I learned a lot from them what NOT to do. But my addiction was a kind of self silencing and sabotage so I feel strongly we need to reach out to help those who struggle and are so sorely in need of a light in the darknes.. Once again thank you for sharing so honestly.

      1. That is such a great idea… I would love to contribute to such a page, as I know others would as well. I agree that there are so many who could benefit from hearing the experiences of others, and the hope that goes beyond.

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