Un word able

What more can I say

About this heart

When I speak already

I am torn so far apart

From the place where true feeling just rises and swells

And shows me truths its so difficult tell

Another living soul


Here all alone

I thought I knew myself well

But now I wonder

How much of us we can know and speak

Is not words just falling silent

Under a waterfall

Or rather if feeling reveals far more to us

Of truths that often words can only kill

I only know there is longing here

That so long ago had to be buried

That now true feelings and impulses

Are tidal and eddy

In places where I build up barricades so long ago

All I know is this

I’ve spent to much time alone

In the deepest darkest loneliest spaces

Where no other human soul existed

Only ghostly traces

And now I do not think I can live here any more

Convincing myself I am not needing and longing to be

With human company

Does a human being ever fully know their heart

What makes a human being retreat

To such a far off place

Where they hide the truth in the shadows

While the ground underneath them

Swallows up their feet?

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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5 thoughts on “Un word able”

  1. You are in a time of great change; I feel this from all of the recent poems of yours. It is a painful but beautiful journey, and one that I know can feel lonely, but you are not alone.


    1. No I am not alone really am I? I think part of us tells us we are because this journey strips us away from superficial supports and we do go into an abyss for a long time. But as long as we have our soul and connectin to source we are not ever really alone but feeling alone while separating at this time in human history does feel very very lonely at times, as I am sure you also know. Hugs, lovely friend ❤

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      1. I really do understand and I have been, and will be again, in places where the loneliness feels overwhelming, even though I have support in my life. Sometimes it can’t be explained or reasoned with. I find myself fighting against the sinking at times, but then I allow myself to sink. I am in a bizarre place right now. Very back and forth. Not making sense. Sorry.

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