I am stepping back from my sister and her problems. No matter how she hurt me in the past (and the head trauma I had was a direct result of things she did that made me feel so unsafe at the place I needed to rest) I have gone back and tried to keep loving. I stuck with her through the suicide attempt. I just dont want to have to support her now at the hospital. Part of me feels guilty but I know I have kept in constant contact with her since Mum died and tried to mention helpful things for anxiety and she is not interested in them so I have tried and I also realise now her healing journey is her own. I can only love her now from a distance, it hurts to write this and I do cry for her. Hard as it is this seems the right decision for me. An adult one.