Waiting : when love seems absent


When love seems absent

Only a cold wind blows

As doubts grow

Haunting the edges of my mind

With thoughts of what you believe of me

Never positive

It seems

But how can I know

When there is only silence


In the empty place

Where connection and sharing should be

I fill a void with worry and doubt

It was like this on the lonely afternoons

I waited for you to come home

All alone

As my mother waited

I waited also to be born

As I waited trapped in a crushed car

For them to cut me out

At the tender age of 17

It seems I have lived a life time in waiting

And so now

When you leave me here all alone

With only silence for company

It feels like an agony

But then there lives inside this breast

A silent witness

Who sees and knows how much my heart aches

And finally accepts

For when



Attention is absent

Then I can only attend to me

And although my heart aches

I can only weep

How do I know what secrets you wish to keep

By staying silent

The truth is I cannot know

But my heart still longs for you

And misses you

With a waiting

A longing and an aching

So very familiar to me

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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