When love seems absent
Only a cold wind blows
As doubts grow
Haunting the edges of my mind
With thoughts of what you believe of me
Never positive
It seems
But how can I know
When there is only silence
Withholding
In the empty place
Where connection and sharing should be
I fill a void with worry and doubt
It was like this on the lonely afternoons
I waited for you to come home
All alone
As my mother waited
I waited also to be born
As I waited trapped in a crushed car
For them to cut me out
At the tender age of 17
It seems I have lived a life time in waiting
And so now
When you leave me here all alone
With only silence for company
It feels like an agony
But then there lives inside this breast
A silent witness
Who sees and knows how much my heart aches
And finally accepts
For when
Love
Connection
Attention is absent
Then I can only attend to me
And although my heart aches
I can only weep
How do I know what secrets you wish to keep
By staying silent
The truth is I cannot know
But my heart still longs for you
And misses you
With a waiting
A longing and an aching
So very familiar to me
Emerging From The Dark Night 