Suicidal

Sometimes the world seems so dark and lonely

Its hard to find your way

Somedays the  every mistake you ever made

Every lost opportunity

Every shattered dream

Every broken connection

Feels like a weight that is crushing you

Inside your aching soul

Making it impossible to breathe

You feel the greatest yawning emptiness

Or even worse than that : Numb to it all

There are those thoughts that cripple you

Like

I will never be enough

Everyone I’ve ever loved as left me

Or surely life would be better for every one

If I ceased to exist

At times like these where do you turn?

Can you reach out to another

And say

Please help me

My heart is breaking

I fear might not last another day

I fear I will never be enough

The truth is I have been there

And I know how hard it can be

On those days you feel as though you are

Being crushed and will never again stand up

The only hope I can give is

That though it may sometimes not seem so

There are those out there who care

Sadly they can never live your life

Sadly they can never fully know what you carry inside

Until you share it

Yes there are those who will shun you or make you feel worse or misunderstand

But there are others who won’t

And maybe just maybe if you open the door and share your burden

Maybe maybe just maybe if you let yourself be known

And show rather than hide your vulnerablity deep inside

Something will shift and tomorrow you will

Find the energy and hope and courage and will to live another day