Untethered

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I imagine one day

You will appear

Walking down a stair

Saying

Here I am

And do you remember when

All those years ago

How we met by chance

Pulled together by mutual acquaintance

Tendril threads of fascination and attraction

Weaving their way around our hearts

Our lives were hanging by a thread

And we became intertwined for a while

But fear of trust

Ate my soul

Tearing away

At the root of us

You allowed me no place for ambivalence

And for the doubts

They sowed in my mind

And so our threads unravelled

 And I

Untethered was set free from a mooring place

As you latched on to another’s smile

I saw the signs of leaving all the while

So don’t lie

And say I bought it on myself

It was just history repeating

You bid me farewell on the boat at Helsinki

I as I bit back pain

My lip bleeding loss into a hurting heart

I had to carry over years

Later you tried to find  me

What was it you wanted to say

Sorry?

All too late

I could not see the truth

Until it was too late

My heart was blind

And full of earlier loss

You could neither know nor understand

So if I see you one day

Coming down that stair

Will I run to meet you

Or turn away again?

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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4 thoughts on “Untethered”

      1. Oh, we are still in contact. Things have changed because they had to. But we have no acrimony. I’m grateful for her, and I hope there is a place for her in my life going forward, even if it’s not what we thought it might be.

        Blessings to you as well. And Merry Christmas

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