Allow me please
The deep dive inward
That leads towards the hurting place
Don’t tell me platitudes
Because they will not help
The process I am undergoing
Don’t you see
Its for each of us to hold our pain
But some help would mean
We were not exiled
Left all alone in it
If I am gone from you for days
I understand how that absence hurts
You felt you were living with a ghost
But I was always here
Hovering in the shadows
Looking for signs of your love
When it hurt you
And touched you
In that place of your original wound
I know, my love how hard it was
I see it all now
Seven years down the track
That separated us in December
But I always loved you
My love was real
Even if it was a love so often hard for you to find
And I remember now
How it was for us
And I am grateful even though our tearing apart hurt
That finally I could find that place
I could never fully escape on my road to healing
I will carry always
Deep within my heart
The memory of how we tried
To reach across a deep divide
And know that ultimately
It could never be for us
In this life
If we wanted to be free
Emerging From The Dark Night 