It only felt safe away from you
So away from you I ran
With all these locked up feelings inside
Which longed so desperately to find a home
They became a raging river
Storm filled skies clouded my vision
Until I was lost
Led only by a raging hunger
Driven away from any sense
Deep rivulets of longing and hurt
Became silted rivers
As all along my veins
Pain sang its silent truth
And in my solitude
I struggled to track its pathways
Along my meridians
Grief and hunger
Longing and desire
You are locked up energies
And so easily masquerade
Driving us to desperate places
Where we seek solace
Among the broken
Like lost ghosts with no faces
We scare the frightened child away
We run not knowing what is is we are running from or to
But still our heart beats on
Setting up its stacato rhythm
Trying to waken us from our sleep
To the sound of our hidden music
The buried song that lives deep inside
That we lost our will to sing
So long ago
And all the time truth and grief
Wrestle in us deep inside
Seeking and seeking expression
A place of understanding
We fall to our knees in the midst of a storm
Become a torrent
Become a quagmire
Shedding the tears that find no ocean of acceptance
No outer home
They pool at our feet
We surrender finally to the devestating truth
That we will forever be alone
Holding this silent grief
That never found a home
Emerging From The Dark Night 