Another post from drafts/backlog I wrote some time back. Mars is no longer in Leo as it was when I wrote this, but we need a positive Mars or masculine assertive force both to express and guard our spirit in healthy ways. Emotional violence or disrespect leads to deep wounds that can either fester inside or be projected onto others. I wanted to speak for love and peace in this post but am mindful peace only comes once we work through violent feelings we may be left with after long years of being on the receiving end of emotional devaluation or violence.
I wish there were more voices for love on our planet. I just read the following post by Faux Croft https://fauxcroft.com/2017/07/27/war-tales/comment-page-1/#comment-6536 in which he is lamenting the lack of inspiring stories of peace and love, instead what we are increasingly seeing around the world are tales or games of war and violence.
I just had to delete some message/comments from my WordPress Spam folder offering to connect me to kiddie porn! How can this happen? Our boundaries are up for assault on a daily basis from all kinds of hatred and emotional violence.
At no other time in history do we more sorely need voices that speak for love and unity, peace and surrender. Reacting to emotional violence with hatred and more emotional violence just does not work, but what is the alternative? That we increasingly feel the need to hide behind protective walls? It is coming to the point where if we are on any kind of true healing or recovery path we need to chose to disconnect more and more from certain toxic energies and chose solitude, but how can we do this without shutting down and blocking out the good and positive connections with those committed to a path of openness, tolerance, compassion and love?
It is easy too, to then ascribe to a totally depressing view of human nature, but at the same time we cannot afford to don rose coloured spectacles for there is very real suffering, abuse and pain and violence going on in our planet at present. For myself I chose actively not to engage with violent movies, shows or games. It has been painful for me to see at times where acting out my own anger in a violent way can take me. It serves no good purpose. For myself I need to recognise the anger as a cry from the spirit but also be mindful, calm and gentle in how I deal with it.
Mars, planet of violence and war is now in the fiery sign of Leo, it has been there for just over a week. Leo is the lion energy that can sometimes put king ego on a pedestal, in the purest sense it represents the healthy ego that can an assert boundaries to survive and thrive and fight for our own and other’s right to respect, ideally tempered with a deeper awareness and respect of where other’s boundaries lay.
In the darkest sense king ego can seek to run roughshod over others who are seen as weak or deserving of abuse or domination. Such behaviour reached a crescendo in the time of Hitler when the planet of destruction Pluto was placed in the sign of Leo. This period saw the ethnic cleansing of over 1 million Jews in the so called ‘final solution’ of Nazism and the Third Reich. These events were the epitome of the frenzied narcissistic ego gone mad, seeking both vengeance and scapegoats to displace their pain and feeling they had the divine right to do so.
The damaged ego can only find reasons to separate and make divisions, never reasons to unite, let down its guard and combine together for peace and harmony. The negative ego sees such joining and surrender as a threat or a defeat. The negative ego is ruled by fear of its own shadow which it projects in emotional violence. Surely we can learn better ways of coping in life than trying to displace our pain and wounds onto others. And in the situation in which we sadly find ourselves the repositories for such pain it is painstaking work to throw off unearned shame and without re-wounding or re-traumatising ourselves, or keeping ourselves stuck in a mire of sludge or cesspool of unresolved feelings of damaging resentment turned inward.
As someone who has been in recovery for over 23 years is seems to sad to me that very few documentaries or shows depict a path of healing that leads through the darkness to light. I noticed this week that in Australia the film A Monster Calls is due for release. I hope to be able to see it in a week or so, as from what I have heard it tries to depict in a symbolic or metaphorically and imaginative way the painful feelings of a young boy dealing with his mother’s fatal illness in the absent of empathy, guidance and support.
Obviously in such a situation his rejected feelings become monstrous to him but on some level the monster may be shown as offering him some kind of protection or way of dealing with a tough situation that no one seems willing to address or explain.
Surely we should at this stage in our emotional development be better equipped to help young ones come to terms with a host of feelings they will need to face at some stage rather than leave them alone with them in a situation which results in them then becoming ‘monstrous’. Monsters it seems to me represent ignored, repressed or invalidated feelings gone rogue that then come chasing us asking for integration and there is a connection between how well we develop a ‘healthy’ ego that is able to aware of relate to and integrate darker, shadowy or rejected contents that others could not help us to deal with growing up. When such monsters take hold and find no understanding or empathy. violence can and does result. Disaffected youth become suicide bombers enacting vengeance upon others, or Hitlers who are able to mobilise others to violence through preying on wounded places and offering a twisted kind of power and redemption. Its not really a world anyone who truly believes in and speak for love is interested in living in.