Do you often post a post in which you reveal intimate details of deep pain and then suffer a backlash from within telling you it was a mistake and you would have been better off not to post it? This is what happens with me and then I am very surprised to see ‘likes’ come up on that post. I just think I am so conditioned to self reject that as soon as expose vulnerability the critic steps in to try and protect me from imagined harm, judgement or rejection.
I am sure I m not alone in this and I was reading in Brene Brown’s book on shame today that shame disappears when we talk about and share about it so that is what I am doing here. Today was a really tough day for me but I did get through it. It was one of the toughest days I have had in a while. My two posts were about that pain, just an attempt to externalise some of it. This is a tough time of year for me with old triggers of anniversaries so it is important to share. Thank you to those loyal followers or readers who have shown me support. I do so strongly appreciate it. x