When you are alone : dissolving : vibration : transformation

When you are alone When you feel alone in your deepest soul Does it make any sense that even then you are connected  In the feeling of great absence And possibly a longing for a fully engaged presence Or even just the aching desire to be solitary Alone can be at times the deepest pit of blackness that seems to suck you down A vortex in which your deepest fear may be that who you are is really disappearing or dissolving I have had this feeling As though my body was no longer made of solid substance But was instead was porous a mixed up microcosm of many cells vibrating in liquid space And then my mind wondered If I would be able to collect myself and my body and not dissolve into a pool of water on the floor Shame soaking every cell And making it permeable to others judgements that could obliterate or destroy me These were all experiences that I have or had That transformed in time That were neither permanent nor endurable They all passed Just as my feelings pass Rising and falling like the cresting and passing of a wave pulled on by the Moon’s gravitational field  And as I write warm sunlight reminds me that all alone here I am never really alone Perhaps the sun moon wind and stars feel me revolving in their orbits As they bleed their beauty through to an evolving consciousness and being Seemingly fixed in time But really never constant Always shifting Always transforming Always changing

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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