A place of ice and stones

Even though it was not conscious

I chose this prison

Which to me felt safe

I was so very tired

From all the times I was forced into

The outer galaxy

Looking down on earth

And all the people in it

Towards cosy warm houses

Feeling like an extra terrestrial

Wondering to myself

How do they live?

How do they love?

It is so cold here

And I am frozen

Seeking warmth

In a place of ice and stones

 Its all I have ever known

Here within the ache

There is no fire burning

And longing for what I cannot have

Hollows me out

Until I am deeper than empty

Body soul feels

No place in space

Aches to find a way

To a home

I have never known

But paradoxically still have a memory of

Searching without resolution

Hoping with the vainest of hopes

Living

But only just

What you called

A half life

Wandering

With a calling

And a longing

That won’t stay silent