Dazed in happiness
I am sugar coated in smiles
These are not the fake smiles
Of pretending I am doing fine
These genuine smiles of sunshine radiance
Suppressed so long along in a childhood where
I had to numb/dumb down
Be seen and never heard
But also not to be seen or take up space
Life was for adults bent on serious fun
That didn’t involve childhood joy
But now these smiles that light up my face
Are the solar beam of my hearts’ radiance
Falling free from my mouth
And lighting my eyes from deep inside
I am home in the place that is truly me
The space I vacated long ago
And learned to cover over
When I learned that joy and exuberance
Was to be feared
Was a sign of mania
Bah!!
Funereal black hooded nun devils
You cut off all joy and told us what was juicy and raw
Was all evil
Turning living backwards
Shoving it deep down inside us
Making us believe lies
Bullshit!
Joy is what you naturally feel
When your heart is awake
And your soul is on fire
And you body is alive
When you can say
With every fibre of your being
This is me
No apology
No argument
This smile is real
And your negativity
Can’t take it away from me!
Emerging From The Dark Night 