Lizard Eye

Fear is the jailor

Wandering through the haunted citadels of your mind

Rattling his bunch of keys

Taking refuge there

Binding you tightly in hollowed out places

Where you were left alone

Drenched in chemicals that overpowered

Your young body

Chemicals become a potent cocktail of confusion

Desires and reactions and haunting imaginings

All mixed together

Hard to separate

Pooling and drowning your life

Growing larger through critical absence

Flooding you like an ocean

That obliterates consciousness

Lack of containment


Moments in which consciousness

Was totally overpowered

Left you feeling so unsafe

So insubstantial

In the face of life

Fear is also your inner protector

The one that says if you wander too far

Outside the perimeter

Limited and circumscribed

By narrow society or family

You will be alone

Vulnerable to death, attack, starvation or illness

Very real experiences or memories

Rising up from flooding banks

Of limbic brain

Deeper ancestral subconsciousness

Awaken soul

To the voices and vibrations and thoughts

Of the terrorist within

Who wants to keep you locked up

Buttoned down

Bound tight

Safe from harm

Running his ceaseless litany

Of terrifying scenarios

Take care of your heart

By all means

But do not allow the terrorist of fear

To kill off

All the life, joy, hope, freedom

And spontenaiety

Your soul contains

These wonderous chaoses

Fear will never understand

And make the jailor

Quake with dread

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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