You loved me
I see the truth now
I feel it raining its silent grief down on my soul
I could not see clearly before
What I saw was an attack
Someone who didn’t understand
And perhaps you didn’t
But you still loved
And like all lovers
Longed for love to be returned
You just couldn’t express it
In the way
That was needed then
And not understanding either
I pushed away so many times
Even though my heart and soul
Longed to draw close
So many times
Old fears made me a loner
Someone who said
I don’t need too much
I don’t feel too much
But I do
And the truth is this
I learned how to let my wanting go
So as not to feel pain
But then too, I put blocks on my heart
And never tried too hard to show
What I really felt and needed inside
Until one day it awakened like a storm
And blew everything apart
An inner voice telling me to go it alone
An inner voice telling me not to need
An inner voice telling me I had to be strong
When all I needed was to collapse and depend
And there is deep grief now
For what past unresolved pain prevented
But now you and I are drawing as close as we can
Being together but not demanding too much
Happy in each other’s company
Happy to give and receive the simplest of love
In just being
With all the longed for love
Rising up from those deep places
Where it hid
Deep crevices of soul love fell into
And hid
So for whatever time is left
Let us love
And in loving
Surrender the barriers
To love’s presence
This is beautiful!!
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Thanks so much ❤
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I love the sorrowful tone in the beginning that changes into hope at the end
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