Under tow


All the things unsaid

All the reaching out that led nowhere

All the desire, all the confusion, all the pain

And the deep imprint of everything being swept away

Appears again unbidden in moments


You seem to have evaporated

Only to return on lonely afternoons

Where echoes of old trauma pull on me


I feel as though my insides are dissolving

And I fight to get free

At the same time as surrendering

It is all beyond words anyway

Why struggle to express it

Because in the midst of undertow

I feel so alone

Claimed by death

In tissue deep

Will this undertow ever end?

Despair encompasses me totally

In those dark hours

Though eventually I find my reprieve

As undertow disappears

As mysteriously as it arrived

And I find myself safe

Back on solid land

It is most probably illusion to hope

That undertow will not come again

Deep inside I feel I will never really know

The reason why

Undertow claims my soul

So when it comes

I must

For a time

Allow myself

To be swept away

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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