Warning : passionate ideas and feelings will be aired in this post that I am sure a lot of people wont like but I feel strongly about what I am about to write.
I just read a post about a suicide which was devastating enough. What I found more horrific were some of the comments about how it should never have happened and that now the person concerned would have to face a lot of karma for choosing to check out! He had been pushed to achieve and remorselessly bullied. I get why he felt the need to do what he did.
I want to share something from a book by Anita Moorjani which I feel is based on actual scientific lived experience. Anita had a near death experience several years ago. She died, went over to the ‘other side’, saw the reasons for her illness (lymphoma) and chose to return. Her cancer evaporated much to the bewilderment of medical ‘specialists’. What she found on the other side was only unconditional love. She was born into an Indian background which has a huge focus on the idea of karma, which she speaks about in her two books and its untrue and painful consequences of shame and guilt which all attributed to the development of her terminal illness. How many times have you had the karma card played on you. Its a bit of an equivalent to the ‘Santa wont come and give you presents if you aren’t good and nice’ card. I think its bullshit as unkind people often live til they are very old and really good people suffer. To my mind its yet more narcissistic do gooder bs we need to eliminate!
Since my own near death experience I often marvel at how inventive we humans are and at all the stories we’ve created over the millennia to explain what happens to us after death. … I was extremely fearful of death before my NDE. I was afraid of karma, and in fact, I believed that my cancer was caused by karma, so I spent my life doing things to ensure a positive karma after death. But often these positive actions stemmed not so much from love, empathy and compassion, but more from fear.
During my NDE I was not only without my physical body, but I was also without my race, my culture, my gender and my religion! I shed all those layers of values and beliefs that my physical self had accumulated over this life time. I was unprepared to find that all those physical pieces of my identity had nothing to do with my infinite self. So if my infinite self didn’t include those elements, then what was left after stripping away all of those layers? It wasn’t a reduced element of myself, I experienced nothing but love, empathy and compassion for myself and for everyone who had ever come into my life, whether they had seemingly helped me or hurt me. I realised that even those who had hurt me had somehow moved me on to the next level of my development.
I could call that process my ‘life review’ but that hardly begins to describe the ecstatic experience. I felt no pain, no anger, no judgement (toward myself or others) and no guilt. I just felt so safe and so loved.
After coming back into this life and this body I remember wondering why we were never taught about how unconditionally loved we are, how pure we are, and how powerful and magnificent we are! We are never taught that there is no judgement, or that the most important thing we can focus on is love, not retribution. But then who would tell us this? Most of us – even those who teach us about what happens after death – don’t really know this information. All we know is what our culture or religious (or philosophical) tenants teach.
Believing we are judged in the after life really alters the way we live life here – and often not in a positive way. This belief keeps us in fear of what will happen to us on the other side, so instead of doing good for the sake of goodness and love itself, we can easily acting out of fear of being punished after we die…..
Society conditions us into thinking we are being watched and judged, and that judgement comes from outside sources, because we live in a world of duality. But in non duality there’s only pure consciousness, pure unconditional love and total acceptance. There’s nothing outside of us. Everything’s connected, everything becomes known. And we realise that both the victim and the perpetrator are part of the same consciousness – there is no us and them – it’s all us. We are the two sides of one coin.
I will end the quote there although she has a lot more that is important to say, including how she wishes she had known before how connected we all are and how deeply we affect each other. You can read it in chapter seven of her book What if this is Heaven : How Our Cultural Myths Prevent Us from Experiencing Heaven on Earth.
I would like to think and do believe that the soul of that young man who chose to take his life went to the other side where he was embraced by love. He would have seen finally how distorted and confused the one’s who bullied him were and how sad it was he didn’t believe that as a child of God he was innocent. Anything else others say is just further bullshit and abuse to my mind and comes out of ignorance and fear.