It was not our time

I am opening to receive you

though many places within me

are bound so tightly

from thwarted wanting

together

we are reaching for heaven

we find it

for a moment

it holds us close

in the embrace

of peace

as night pulls us under

the dawn of the new day

tears us apart

my body aches

with the leave taking

lonely here now

old memories evoked

anxious for your return

I loose the focus on

what I need for me

there is much to navigate

before this heart

can give

freed of past pain

it was not the right time

there was another journey to take

one that could only be taken alone

forgive me

I see it now

it was not our time

we longed for so much

but we were not ready

first

there was an ocean to cross

alone