I just looked at my ancestral notes as I am never entirely sure of the exact date that my ancestors arrived in New Zealand from Cornwall. The date 12 December is etched in my memory as the day they set sail and I am aware of what a massive undertaking it was to relocate with 5 small children and sadly the youngest didn’t survive and she was the first Eliza Jane of three, the third was my great grandmother and the second also died in infancy.
Today I am anxiously preparing to go to a house auction and with the Moon close to my natal Uranus planet of change and revolution I was thinking of my ancestors, of all the moves I have tried to make and of the great constant of restlessness and change in my own life story. I went out to find my ancestral notes file and was gobsmacked. Eliza and Thomas my GG Grandfather arrived in NZ today, 11th March 1874. And today the Sun is at 19 Pisces just exactly square Thomas’s Sun in Gemini having just passed over Saturn in Pisces a week ago. I am fascinated by themes within themes, cycles within cycles and all the particular tie ups. But I am also fascinated that I am contemplating a move around the time they were in transit for a far distant land. Things ended badly for Thomas in NZ he started drinking a lot and was employed in a brewery. He had lost his mother and had a new step mother he apparently did not get on with in England, I think she was much younger. I will never know what demons were possessing him, but in time my great grandmother left Thomas taking all the children, apparently due to his alcoholism.
The younger siblings seemed to remain close to Thomas but my great grandmother the third Eliza Jane finally left NZ for Australia in the early 20th century with my grandmother the second of several moves that would find my mother and grandmother all alone in a small town miles and miles from their original roots and more alone after my grandfather died as a result of war injuries endured in World War I.
This is on my mind very much today as I am growing aware of old patterns repeating. The moon today will move from Uranus and towards my natal Pluto in the first house. Pluto rules the deeper unconscious energies gone underground over generations, it rules change, death, endings and the necessary decay and regeneration processes, often deeply painful that lead to new life. Am I being asked to surrender my cocoon here or are there themes, within themes, within themes repeating? Or is this meant to be my fate to move and buy a place on that 121 year anniversary of their arrival in the place where so many Plutonian things would occur? Am I just meant to travel deeper down into the family unconscious instead of making a move that is a repeat and replay? In the end there are no wrongs or rights, just life moving on and the fates continuing to weave the ancestral tapestry of energies of life that thread their skeins deeply through our DNA and souls.
Emerging From The Dark Night 