Forgiveness, like rain

Forgiveness tender falling down like rain

With these tears I shed

The shackles of my braced soul

Loosen

And I feel my heart to be

Not the centre of my body

But rather

The entirety of my consciousness

When we spoke

I felt the distance between us

We will never fully breach

All the times our words flung us so far apart

And yet in your heart

There was a longing

I feel in some way I fell short

I was never the one you could recognise

In the end that was my task

To undertake elsewhere

To find that recognition

Through others and deep within

Now I ask for your support

I wonder what old need I am replaying

Surely I am an adult now

It is time to make my own way in the world

I lingered a long time

Looking for something in the emptiness

And only found deeper darker space

And yet love was there too

Birthed within the deeper recognition

Of that emptiness

Which was, in some strange way

A place of birth

In the recognition

Of all you could not give

I see how much you lacked

And so tenderly

Forgiveness falls down like rain

Washing all my wounded places clean