It occurred to me today how much I gain by supporting others who are struggling like me. I am so very grateful to WordPress as where I live I don’t find it easy to connect to those on a deeper path but on WordPress I have found amongst valuable followers and those I also follow a community of souls who I feel connected to. I feel connected because people are real about how hard it really is on the tough days, how at times they can feel entirely rooted to the spot by depression or unexpressed pain and sadness, how they suffer when they witness a world where idiots rise to power and then traumatise everyone who has to watch them spewing out hate and vitriol and silliness all over the place. This is my community of like minded souls and I have been so helped on my darkest of dark days by the love and empathy shown to me, by those who have offered to email me, who have listened and heard and even at times reblogged my posts. What a gift!!!
Today I can feel when others are in pain and struggling because I have pain and struggle on some days. Yesterday I had a fight with my Mum. I wrote a post about it but I took it down. I find it hard at times to express my anger towards my Mum in a public sphere but at times she has hurt me very deeply and I was emotionally abandoned by her. Its hard to say it like it is. Well yesterday she hurt me a lot and I was in pain and I wrote a post about it but I took it down. Then I read today how others were really struggling yesterday and questioned why I had to take my post down. It felt to me as if I should not show ingratitude even though I felt she had been hard with me. Not easy!
I affirm others in the way I should affirm myself. When I affirm you, I rise, when I give you encouragement its because I want you to know the joy in your heart that comes from self love, from the realisation of all the ways in which in being hurt by a difficult world you came to believe that you were not good enough and that that was a false belief. Never the truth. And so today when I was feeling better I read those blogs I really related to and gave some support because we need it, we need to hear words of love, of appreciation, of encouragement and of affirmation. When we denigrate others we denigrate ourselves, when we lift others up with our words, our prayers or our love and encouragement, we rise. Here we can find a community of souls in which we can express, love and support and spread some positive healing energy when the day seems dark. Isn’t that what we should live for?