I am me. I bring to life my own reactions which occur out of certain experiences and a certain temperament. I am put on earth to be me. If I react in a way you didn’t want me to do you think you can change it or argue about it? Its not up for debate. Sorry!! No ditch that actually I am not. That is co-dependence and its a messy mixed up game I no longer want to play.
You may think my blog is okay and perhaps deserving of some recognition. I don’t. I just write from my heart to be honest and hopefully help others to feel free too. I am not looking for awards or recognition what I would rather is that I touched your heart or something resonated.
Deciding to promote me without asking me and then feeling wounded when I say it made me feel uncomfortable all started with you. I didn’t ask to be promoted. You say I said I was lonely and so you wanted to help. Loneliness is part of life and part of the spiritual path. It is a way into depth. It may not always be pleasant or comfortable because life is not always, in fact at times it can be damned uncomfortable. Does that mean we put up walls or run away or just try and shoot the discomfort down in flames? Show some maturity.
Why should I be the one left crying? I didn’t ask for help. I don’t feel less than just because I don’t get recognition, my feelings about me don’t rest on any outside circumstance, they come from how closely I choose to live to my own values. So don’t put your feelings of discomfort about my discomfort or values on me or try to assume what my values are, or how I feel and then get offended when I don’t feel that way. I feel as I feel no question, no argument, no apology. Leave me be. I was having a peaceful life before you barged your way into it and began stirring up your messy whirlwind.