Everything goes black


There is a place in the deep abandonment depression

Where everything goes black

You can see no colours and are caught in a barren wasteland

Where there is just pain

You have been deprived of what you needed

Perhaps forever  it seems

And you are re-experiencing

Over and over and over again

All the times the ground fell away

All the times you were cut into by

Boiling water, shards of broken glass and car engine pieces

If you really knew how that was

Would you have left me to suffer alone today

With no comfort or soothing

Just because you could not cope

Well we have to part ways here

At the park where my tears fell

Others reached out across the deep divide

And gave me a hug

They listened while I said a few of the things that scarred

I cannot quite get over your cruel abandonment

You made the wrong call today

And maybe you were saying what I knew all the time deep inside

You could never know how this feels

In a place beyond words

And you lack the true capacity to be there as I need

I don’t want to talk about it with you any more

Because words alone cannot reach

The deep place within where pain lives



Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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