Recognise : That I feel deeply
That I need love
That hurt and hatred and violence damage me
And that your lack of empathy burns me in the already tender raw places within.
Recognise : that the deep wounds of my soul and life led me here
To drowning in a pool of tears that is now an ocean and seems almost too deep that on certain days I fear it will drown me
To burning in a fire of rage that is one part resistance 99 parts the agony of having to witness yet again the shredding or decimation of love, empathy, support, togetherness, containment.
Recognise that I am not a failure but a success for having survived and for feeling this anger and sadness
Recognise please the courage it takes
To still go on
On the days that feel like fire and ice
Or like a blank barren wasteland that will entirely consume my soul
Recognise that my struggle comes not from any deficiency
But from being a human awake and alive on this planet
Where so much happens that is beyond my control