I feel so sad today. My Mum is in so much pain. It makes me feel so very sad. Its so hard to be in pain. This pain she has seems so extreme. It seems the outgrowth and the ending of a trauma story playing out over so many generations. I can only witness it and cry so deeply tears falling down and down and down and down like rain. There is no cure there is no ending. I can only witness it. That is all I can do. And what this sadness says to me is, that in the end, after all the suffering the only thing that is truly real is love.