Today in meditation…tears falling with the knowledge in two weeks my breast tissue will be taken and my body will be irrevocably changed.
An understanding came that I am more than just my body and as I open myself to the sensation in my body I know it is not fixed it is fluid and flows like a wave.
A message came from my deeper self as an openness and expansion emerged from deep within me…
to the ground of your being
open your heart
that the ground of your being
Comfort and a sense of deep peace came from this understanding and a knowing that painful as this operation will be and as many tears as I will shed, within this grief is openness and somewhere deep within me there is a place of peace I can visit when I live in this openness.